Miss me?? 0_o

Fuh lama tak update blog. Been really busy with assignments and events. Boleh dikatakan everyday lepas cuti raya kerja kerja nonstop.. Penat woo.. Now I'm blogging at Adventist Hospital Penang. I'm hospitalised due to growth of infection on my back. Met Doc this morning and he said it needs to be removed to kami apa lagi, ON ja la dengan procedurenya. Sangat scary! Operation is in few hours but bilik tak siap siap lagi! I need to rest my mind now!

I can't take back what I've said or undo what I've done. But the only thing I can do now is to apologize. Sorry for everything. I know things will never be the same but both of us need to realize that both of us are the foundation of a good friendship. What else can I do to make this better?

p/s : I miss the old us :(

hari sakit-sakit sedunia..

Semalam 1st time sakit kepala tahap chronic! Buat apa saja sure sakit kepala. Dari bangun pagi sampai nak tidor malam sakit.. Hari ni tak sakit kepala dah tapi sakit tekak and telinga.. :(

Positive Day suddenly.. :)

I'm trying to be strong. Getting rid all the negative feelings in me. I'm doing this ensure my future with friends will become normal like we used to during 1st semester. Hoping until i see the results. The ones that can't change, I don't give a damn but the ones that will change and make effort to change, I'll love them forever. Up to this moment, I sensing some positive changes in one of my friends. Hope it'll keep on improving and the level of changes increase. The most important thing now is that, I'm going back home this Friday! Not gonna hang out here in Mainland :D Island people, do u miss me?? :) That's all for now, gonna get ready for meeting -> class hunt -> serving class!

Mak & Bapak, nak balik!!! nak ulang alik ja... :( takmau takmau.. tak boleh tahan. I'm invincible here and not appreciated. Memang focus on study tapi benda ni ada kat keliling, so lari la pi mana pon. Can i?? ;(

I can't stand this anymore :(

I want to travel back and forth from my house to campus. I don't wanna stay here in Seberang. Every minute i feel like smacking someone's head and furthermore, I don't feel appreciated after what I've done here. People start to be selfish, back stabbing and use me for their own benefits. They call for my help whenever they're in trouble or need to do something. But when they don't, they'll act as if I'm not there. Is this they way friends should act? Is this the way friends should treat their friend? I may not be the most perfect person living here but at least i don't take advantage of people, i don't blame people for my own mistakes and i don't boss people around unless the situation ask me too. I feel as if I don't have friends here. Luckily Faizal and my seniors are with me. I don't feel the sameway like what i felt about my friends during 1st semester. Now they're different! It's better if i just transfer to other campus or to another college, KDU!

Before registering to UiTM, me and my family were discussing of signing me in to KDU for Culinary Arts programme but turns out, i was offered Hotel Management by UiTM so to make things easy and to safe cost, I registered myself in UiTM and that's the beginning of suffer.

1st semester : happy, friends are happy. Life is everything. Enjoying every moment of my life in UiTM.

2nd semester : problems start. Assignment, friends sulking and beginning to be selfish.

3rd semester : I think this semester is the worst! I hate it now.. I don't think i can go on. I'm not strong enough to face this alone. I have to make decisions..

4th,5th semester : not sure what's gonna happen next. Hope it'll be better and friends will act like a friend should act *hoping*

6th semester : luckily I'm out for internship :D

Decisions i have to make : 1. whether or not to discuss my problems with my friends or not

2. I should move out? Travel back and forth from home to campus?

or just remain where I'am now??

Pretty tough ones, I know! Considering all my housemates which are also my classmates of what they're gonna say if I move out. How am i going to explain everything? Why growing up is hard? I need a break from all this.

Mak & Bapak, take me to Bali to calm my mind down please :(

p/s : FML!

Orang Lupa Diri

Bila nak something baru nak buat baik kan?? Apasai perangai nak kena macam tu?? Is that what we call friends? Kalau dia yang kena responsible dan2 nak awal la buat baik la apa la, tapi bila bukan dia yang kena responsible? TAIK!! Lambat tu memang hobi, kurang ajar memang wajib, tak respect tu.... what goes around comes around (karma).. take note people! sapa terasa better change your attitude before it's too late. I'm not saying i'm the best or anything but at least i have respect for others and for myself. THINK!

Hello Puasa!

Today is the first day of puasa for this year. It's been great so far but yesterday was hell. I felt like i was really in Hell's kitchen with Chef Ramsay, since yesterday was kitchen class and our lecturer was furious! Because of one mistake made by a group member, everyone else's work was jeopardized. Everyone were scolded and not in the mood at that time. But after that, mood came back. Chef was feeling better and smiled. So things went back to usual and no more stress. Now I'm thinking what to eat for buka puasa later. I need to budget myself! Bulan puasa is all about budget :p like seriously!

it's all about WHY??

lesson should be learnt! why can't people respect those that have helped you a lot? ease your burden? why people have to be so disrespectful? why there's still humans with this kind of attitude?

*serabut*

wwwuuuuhhhhuuu otak serabut... study insyaAllah OK but other activities yang kasi otak serabut. I'm a project manager for two activities from two different clubs and without me realizing this, both my programs will happen in the same week. 1st program is for HATSS and it will be held on 21-23 of september whereas 2nd activity will be on 24-26 of september and this is under Entrepreneurship club. Now all i can do is to change the date for my 1st program to either only 21st of september or 21-22 of september. Now i have to discuss with my subordinates. Hope everything will go as plan. Pray for me and wish me luck people.. *i need it*

it makes me panic!

accounting sucks!

banci

who think that being in a relationship with your classmate is complicated? who think otherwise? comment and give reason for your answer. I'm not talking about me. I'm curious about all these. Want opinion.. Thanks and appreciate much.. kisses :D

*screaming*

sangat stress bila surrounded with amateurs! They just can't change themselves. They can't be considerate! It's a shame to those people. I wonder where do they come from? Mars? Pluto? One word, NARROW-MINDED! Besides that, is it hard to help other people when they need one? I think I've sacrifice everything to help them but they can't return the favor. Is it? is it? I all ways wish that i can hit their head against the wall but I still love them.

friends or strangers!?

kawan ka lawan? aku nie kalau betol-betol la benda nie jadi, dah lama aku mati sebab rasa macam ramai ja yang tikam belakang aku for no reason. What i did wrong? These kind of people should not be living in this world. Depan nampak baik tapi belakang,elok punya dok perli aku, dok kutok aku kat orang lain. Regret knowing you backstabbers!

hhhmmm

I don't think i can juggle anymore :( It's too depressing! It's a huge responsible for me as a representative for my class. I want to go home. Too tired with my schedule and i need time off. Seriously, I'm tired! I can go mad if these things go on for the rest of my life.

Account sangat susah!

LIABILITIES! EXPENSES! ASSETS! OWNER'S EQUITY! REVENUES! CREDIT & DEBIT!

HOW TO DIFFERENTIATE ALL THESE??

BALANCE SHEET! JOURNAL! INCOME STATEMENT!

CAN I MAKE THIS SIMPLE??

TENSION!

Boring tahap gaban!

Petang nie ada meeting Entrepreneurship club and aku kena present proposal yang aku dah buat. It's going to be hard since I haven't checked with any resorts for the accommodations and what activity we'll be doing there. Now i need to settle my account assignment given yesterday 1st, then off to my proposal planning then tomorrow if God wills, I'm going to Teluk Intan with Faizal and to Teluk Batik to survey all the activities that can be done there and accommodations and stuff. This is only it for now, will update more in future. Thanks for reading people. Aaahhhh i forgot, my presentation was REJECTED due to lack of points and sentences are too long for an outline. Will present again on next Monday.

My Thursday

Today(Thursday) I have 3 classes. 2 classes at Perda and one is at campus.. The one that is at campus was Serving practical class and now it's 12.40am(Friday) and i just arrived home around 20minutes ago!

Crap Articles Search!

Found a bunch of articles past few days but some can be used and some can't. Now,me & Faizal are browsing thru the net again trying to find more articles about obesity, the cause of obesity in malaysia to be specific. The criteria for the articles are, it has to have title, date of the article produced or published and author of the article and not in point form. Until now, I manage to find articles that have only title, date and author. Why is it hard to find the correct articles? I want this presentation to be done by tonight and I have doubt about it :(

Ayat Faizal :D

kita susah sama-sama!