I can't take back what I've said or undo what I've done. But the only thing I can do now is to apologize. Sorry for everything. I know things will never be the same but both of us need to realize that both of us are the foundation of a good friendship. What else can I do to make this better?

p/s : I miss the old us :(

hari sakit-sakit sedunia..

Semalam 1st time sakit kepala tahap chronic! Buat apa saja sure sakit kepala. Dari bangun pagi sampai nak tidor malam sakit.. Hari ni tak sakit kepala dah tapi sakit tekak and telinga.. :(

Positive Day suddenly.. :)

I'm trying to be strong. Getting rid all the negative feelings in me. I'm doing this ensure my future with friends will become normal like we used to during 1st semester. Hoping until i see the results. The ones that can't change, I don't give a damn but the ones that will change and make effort to change, I'll love them forever. Up to this moment, I sensing some positive changes in one of my friends. Hope it'll keep on improving and the level of changes increase. The most important thing now is that, I'm going back home this Friday! Not gonna hang out here in Mainland :D Island people, do u miss me?? :) That's all for now, gonna get ready for meeting -> class hunt -> serving class!

Mak & Bapak, nak balik!!! nak ulang alik ja... :( takmau takmau.. tak boleh tahan. I'm invincible here and not appreciated. Memang focus on study tapi benda ni ada kat keliling, so lari la pi mana pon. Can i?? ;(

I can't stand this anymore :(

I want to travel back and forth from my house to campus. I don't wanna stay here in Seberang. Every minute i feel like smacking someone's head and furthermore, I don't feel appreciated after what I've done here. People start to be selfish, back stabbing and use me for their own benefits. They call for my help whenever they're in trouble or need to do something. But when they don't, they'll act as if I'm not there. Is this they way friends should act? Is this the way friends should treat their friend? I may not be the most perfect person living here but at least i don't take advantage of people, i don't blame people for my own mistakes and i don't boss people around unless the situation ask me too. I feel as if I don't have friends here. Luckily Faizal and my seniors are with me. I don't feel the sameway like what i felt about my friends during 1st semester. Now they're different! It's better if i just transfer to other campus or to another college, KDU!

Before registering to UiTM, me and my family were discussing of signing me in to KDU for Culinary Arts programme but turns out, i was offered Hotel Management by UiTM so to make things easy and to safe cost, I registered myself in UiTM and that's the beginning of suffer.

1st semester : happy, friends are happy. Life is everything. Enjoying every moment of my life in UiTM.

2nd semester : problems start. Assignment, friends sulking and beginning to be selfish.

3rd semester : I think this semester is the worst! I hate it now.. I don't think i can go on. I'm not strong enough to face this alone. I have to make decisions..

4th,5th semester : not sure what's gonna happen next. Hope it'll be better and friends will act like a friend should act *hoping*

6th semester : luckily I'm out for internship :D

Decisions i have to make : 1. whether or not to discuss my problems with my friends or not

2. I should move out? Travel back and forth from home to campus?

or just remain where I'am now??

Pretty tough ones, I know! Considering all my housemates which are also my classmates of what they're gonna say if I move out. How am i going to explain everything? Why growing up is hard? I need a break from all this.

Mak & Bapak, take me to Bali to calm my mind down please :(

p/s : FML!

Orang Lupa Diri

Bila nak something baru nak buat baik kan?? Apasai perangai nak kena macam tu?? Is that what we call friends? Kalau dia yang kena responsible dan2 nak awal la buat baik la apa la, tapi bila bukan dia yang kena responsible? TAIK!! Lambat tu memang hobi, kurang ajar memang wajib, tak respect tu.... what goes around comes around (karma).. take note people! sapa terasa better change your attitude before it's too late. I'm not saying i'm the best or anything but at least i have respect for others and for myself. THINK!

Hello Puasa!

Today is the first day of puasa for this year. It's been great so far but yesterday was hell. I felt like i was really in Hell's kitchen with Chef Ramsay, since yesterday was kitchen class and our lecturer was furious! Because of one mistake made by a group member, everyone else's work was jeopardized. Everyone were scolded and not in the mood at that time. But after that, mood came back. Chef was feeling better and smiled. So things went back to usual and no more stress. Now I'm thinking what to eat for buka puasa later. I need to budget myself! Bulan puasa is all about budget :p like seriously!

it's all about WHY??

lesson should be learnt! why can't people respect those that have helped you a lot? ease your burden? why people have to be so disrespectful? why there's still humans with this kind of attitude?

*serabut*

wwwuuuuhhhhuuu otak serabut... study insyaAllah OK but other activities yang kasi otak serabut. I'm a project manager for two activities from two different clubs and without me realizing this, both my programs will happen in the same week. 1st program is for HATSS and it will be held on 21-23 of september whereas 2nd activity will be on 24-26 of september and this is under Entrepreneurship club. Now all i can do is to change the date for my 1st program to either only 21st of september or 21-22 of september. Now i have to discuss with my subordinates. Hope everything will go as plan. Pray for me and wish me luck people.. *i need it*

it makes me panic!

accounting sucks!