INSOMNIA??

i'm having difficulties to sleep. 

INSOMNIA?? 

perhaps. 

i can't sleep not until azan subuh. 

semayang subuh then baru bole tido.

i guess subuh has a power to make people sleep. 

hehe who knows.

been sleeping at 6-7am since semester break started. 

the will only wake up at 6-7pm.

i know it's not healthy but what can i do?

i have to try to sleep early.

but if i still can't sleep early, i guess i have to seek for doctors help.

they could give me medication that could help me to go to sleep?

from day to day,my pimples start to poping out more and more.

i guess it's because i sleep really late and it stresses my body and that's what makes my pimples to pop out..

anyone out there facing the same problem as i do? 

let's share cause sharing is caring and i need help on this. 

semester break is about to end and i have to get prepared for early classes, so that means i have to wake up early, and for me to wake up early, i have to sleep early.

sshheeessshh what a complicated problem huh?

 p/s : gimme some good advices. i need to sleep early. PLEASE!! 

-S.O.S-

Till the next post

Tata for now XOXO

 - TTYL -

Meaningful Quote

"I hate the way you talk to me,

and i hate the way you cut you hair.

I hate the way you drive my car.

I hate it when you stare."

"I hate your big dumb combat boots,

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick.

It even makes me rhyme."

"I hate the way you're always right.

i hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry."

"I hate it when you're not around,

and call the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly, i hate the way i don't hate you, not even close,

not even a little bit, not even at all."

quote from 10 Thing I Hate About You.

it's meaningful and deep. 

i just felt i should quote this and just keep this for me in future.

i don't know why, but i've been watching love stories couple of times now. 

and i'm beginning to love it.

keeping in touch with my feelings.

some might thing it's lamae for a guy to express his feelings,

but u know what? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.

let people talk what they want to talk. 

ignore them and just do what we want to do.

listen all to what people say, you might end up at a dead-end,

and you must find your way back and that'll be harder than follow what your heart says at first place. I just hate being told by someone to stop doing something just because people start talking about me.

You know what? people should mind their own business and and buzz out of other people's life.

Till the next post

Tata for now XOXO

- TTYL -

The Month of November '09

bulan November'09 merupakan bulan yang menyakitkan.

berchatting sama Aiza J dan DahliaMazelan,

kami ingin mengishtiharkan bulan November'09 merupakan bulan yang menyakitkan hati.

untuk jadikan lagi gah, 

aku nak buat pengishtiharan secara rasmi.

dalam english dan juga melayu.

"Dengan ini saya Adil Ridzuan selaku Aiza J dan juga DahliaMazelan ingin dengan rasminya mengishtiharkan bulan November'09 ini sebagai bulan yang tak dak ONG!"

"I now officially declare the month of November'09 is a no luck month cause bad thing happened to many people. "

ini kerana pelbagai kejadian yang menyakitkan telah berlaku kepada aku, Aiza J dan juga DahliaMazelan pada bulan ini. 

bukan kami bertiga sahaja,malah ada lagi rakan-rakan terdekat yang terkena malang bulan November'09 ini.

kami akan ingat bulan ini sampai bila-bila.

kami akan hadapi bulan-bulan yang akan datang dengan lebih tabah dan penuh kesabaran. 

INSYAALLAH.

doakan kami kebahagiaan hidup juga yea..

sampai disini sahaja entry saya pada kali ini. 

sekian.

Till the next post 

Tata for now XOXO

- TTYL -

Inspired and Moving On

"you can't lose something you've never had, 

but you can lose someone you cared for so much.

you just have to be strong and try to move on, 

because someone better is out there waiting for you."

said by: yours truly <3

"the song was I Wanna Be With You,

and the movie was the The Proposal and A Walk To Remember.

the food was awesome as we had Roti Nan with Tandoori,

and the drink was coincidental but believable to be the same,Teh 'O' Ice."

"topshop and giordano was the place to shop,

food-court and sometimes mamak would be perfect to stop,

but the one thing that will remain with me is the memory we had,

and Twilight Saga NewMoon will watch it with other peeps,

even though we planned on watching that together.

p/s : things happened for a reason and i respect that.

now i'm starting a new life and a new chapter of my life. 

i'm starting fresh.

would someone get me a new notebook for my life here? *smiled*

note: thanks for those who helped

and thanks for the help and either direct or indirect motivations about life.

thanks for all. 

love you peeps!!

Till the next post

Tata for now XOXO

- TTYL -

I So Can't Believe This

first of all i want to apologize to my dear friend Joel. 

Joel if u're reading this,i'd like to say im sorry.

it's not that i purposely did the appointment after i said i was free the whole week,

early planning was all it takes. 

i was booked after i told u that i was free the whole week. 

don't get mad. i know i was wrong.

sorry and this is the final sorry, if u can't take it then beat it.

at least i said i was sorry.

to the main point.

i was kinda having some some with someone and would like to address this someone as ily.

so, we dated for few weeks and getting closer n closer. 

one day,ily kinda said that she wants this btwn us to work out because she likes me as much as i like her.

so at that point i was happy until she took it back few months later which was few days back.

ily said she's not busy but just not into love stuff for the moment. 

It was painful to read the message and this message comes after a few weeks of me feeling something's bad gonna happen btwn us. 

im saying that i saw this coming but not now.

it's like saying I Love You and take it back. 

it hurts so much.

everyone was telling me that the chances of ily cheating on me is very high. But i ignored it.

turns out it was true and i heard it from ily herself when we met. 

she only told me that after we discussed about other problems earlier. 

my heart shattered into pieces when i heard that. 

i couldn't believe that someone i really care about do this to me.

was told by my cousin that, no all things will go ur way and i keep that in mind.

not everything i want,i'll get it and not everyone i love will last forever even marriage. 

now im going thru tough moments as im trying to forget about it.

it's hard to do so because i was so in love since i haven't been in a relationship for quite sometime and for that sometime i mean 3-4years. 

hard time, hard time. 

now i can't stop tearing up because everything reminds me of ily.

i know it's silly to tear up for someone like this but please try to put urself in my shoes.

i don't know when i'm gonna recover from this tragic heart break condition.

• i need someone to cheer me up. 
  
• i need places that is peaceful for me to clear up my mind. 
  
• i need time to get over this.
  
• i need my friends to share this problems. 
  
• i need u to make me feel better(not gonna happen).
  
• i need things to do to help me forget about it.

i think the rest is up to me.  my CPU is jammed with this and i need to delete it and and store new informations. If not i might need new external hard-drive. :P

after i met ily,i went to Gurney to meet my cousin.

on my way to meet her,i found a thing that people hang in car nowadays and some stick at the car's window. 

i bought one with the writing says : HANDSOME, MACHO & SINGLE INSIDE.

LOL how funny. i think i'll stop here and will continue and post the picture of that thinggie i bought in the next post. 

p/s : i still care and love ily even though we're no longer together. sorry mak&bpk for not telling u guys about this(takot tak jadi,and mmg tak jadi dh). SORRY!! and thanks for those who listen to my problems. love u peeps. <3

Till the next post

Tata for now XOXO

- TTYL -

Luahan Hati yang Terluka

sekarang aku sudah kurang berblogging. 

tak tahu nak blog pasal apa.

aku post blog ni pun sebab sekarang ni ak depress sangat.

even though luaran nampak macam aku tadak problem tapi, dalaman sakit.

malam tadi aku tengok wayang dengan cousin aku cita 2012.

cita tu memang best.

lepas tu aku teringat dengan benda yang jadi dekat aku dlm masa terdekat tak kira yang lepas mahupun yang akan datang.

sekarang ni aku memang sakit hati,sedih dan kecewa. (cewah jiwang n typical la plak. hmm don't care). 

aku tak tau macam mana nak describe apa yang aku rasa sekarang sbb susah nak cerita.

aku pun tak rasa macam nak cerita tapi dah penuh sangat aku simpan kat aku so nak share sikitttt ja, just apa yang aku rasa bukan semua cerita.

yang penting sekarang aku tension!

TENSION! TENSION! TENSION!

p/s : i'm still not over you and imy <3

Till the next post 

Tata for now XOXO

- TTYL -

When Bordem Occured

Tomorrow is my last paper and i can still online..
It's been awhile since my last post..
So hey everyone..
Miss blogging but i don't know what to write about..
Semester break is just around the corner and i can't wait.
Can't wait to meet my MODEsociety friends.
Hanging out and photoshoots and all.
Am now at computer lab online with my roommate's friend.
After friday prayer, went for lunch and now here i am.
Like everyday else,check my myspace profile,update my twitter and login to blogspot to read blogs or TRY to write a blog..
hahaha

At least im trying aren't i..
Next semester will be staying out of campus..
Thank God one burden is now settled.
Now i have to really start to learn how to save some of my allowance so that i could pay my rent..
The house we found was great.
We booked it and just waiting for the keys and pay the deposit.
Can't wait to move in..
Hope we have extra change in our pockets so that we could install a wifi connection.
Did i told u guys that i'll be staying with 5other roommates which is also my classmates.
Now the main concern is transportation..
All transportation is not yet confirmed.
Wish we have transport before the semester begins, so that we won't get wet by all the walking to the bus stop which is FARRRR from our house.


p/s : everyone,pray for me/us so that we could have transport for next semester... AMIN!!


Till the next post

Tata for now XOXO

- TTYL -

Long Time NO Update

It's been awhile since i update this blog. 

Been busy lately. 

I haven't posted blog on my kitchen final assessment and now im too lazy to story about it.. 

I only have pictures to share.

Is that ok with u guys?? 

My unfinish presentation

Pouring the sauce(tomato sauce)

With the sauce and my appertizer,chicken boxing with mustard sauce

My chicken boxing.. MMmmmMMM  good.. 

Till the next post

Tata for now XOXO 

- TTYL -